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Name: Libbie
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Gender: Female
Interests: Hmm...Let's see...umm movies (Bridget Jones-both, GWTW, Ya-Ya, Napoleon Dynamite, Saved!, Dukes of Hazzard, Mean Girls, Harold and Kumar, all the American Pie movies, Vanity Fair, Sleepless in Seattle, An Affair to Remember, etc.), music (Death Cab for Cutie is my favorite, My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, The Used, Something Corporate, Rilo Kiley, Straylight Run, Bright Eyes, Brand New, Outkast, Chingy, Beyonce, B21, Panjabi MC, The Temptations, Frank Sinatra, Judy Garland, The Ronettes, Elvis Presley, Kenny Chesney, Sugarland, Gretchen Wilson, Led Zepplin, Lynrd Skynrd, etc.), books (The Sun Also Rises, The Great Gatsby, Ya-Ya, GWTW, Little Women, Vanity Fair, Pride and Prejudice, Bridget Jones, Emma, etc.), artistic and non-artistic photography, WRITING, LOVE, flirting, meeting new people, RAIN (especially dancing and kissing in it), summer and tanning (the natural way), my lovely friends, shopping, staying out all night with friends
Expertise: not expertise actually more like talents...singing (I'm okay), friendships (I know I sound conceited, but I make friends easily), writing (I'm working on my first, best-selling-to-be-novel-in-the-near-future-so look for it in about 20 years hehe), advice (I try to tell those I love to be positive and have confidence) and listening for that matter, according to some flirting and messing with people's heads...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message me
AIM:  nolascarlett78
AIM:  tipsielibbie777
Member Since:
11/24/2004
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| I know things are just about to fall into place. It may sound crazy, but my whole way of thinking has totally changed. I'm going to get the things I want in life; it just may take a little time. I'm going to get the lifestyle, the relationships, the income, everything. I'm so positive about it all, and I know it's all going to happen soon. | | |
| So it feels pretty much like all of the wounds from all of the guys I've ever dated have been reopened...all from the one simple source: the internet. While the internet is commonly used as a form of entertainment, I was also informed last night that it is also the devil lol. So I've come to the conclusion that on such hellish nights and days as these, that I should keep a bottle near me. Only today I thank God I've had the strength to take those last few sips of my beloved beer down the drain. That beer not only drowns the pain out, but it also serves as a reminder to who I was and who I no longer want to be. From now on, I plan to live as a guy. No boyfriends for awhile, only friends with benefits. It seems the only thing to do in situations like these is to take life by the balls, live like a man, and pray it works out somehow. Eventually, I'll be able to shake it all off and live as myself again, but until I fully recover from all of my wounds being reopened (not just those in the past week or recent weeks), I plan to live life as though every chance were my last. | | |
| So suddenly I've become obsessed with planning my future. I know you can't plan everything, but for some reason it brings me comfort. With all the crazyness going on in my life right now, I need something to occupy myself from doing things I'll later regret. Because of the new obsession of planning out my days, I can simply laugh and say someday it'll all be fixed. Someday, I'll get what I want instead of settling. I always do, and I know how to get it which is why new obsessions are actually good. I can plan everything out and know everything will be okay. Life is beautiful. | | |
| So I totally fucked myself over again. Only in one part of life though, and the best part is I don't even have to be sad about it. I mean sure it's the ending of an era of sorts so I have to do that whole thing I do and cry about it, but I knew it was coming and made preparations a week or so in advance so I feel better. If I do that more often, breakups will never be the same. They might not even be the least bit painful next time. Oh well, at least I got two good new friends out of it and a few things I had always wanted. Now I get to go enjoy the rest of summer doing that whole thing I used to do two years ago, and everyone who knows me knows exactly what I mean...but that's only one tiny aspect of my life. Everything else is great. I got a scholarship plus TOPS. I'm getting back to being who I've always wanted to be again. I've got amazing friends, and I'm continuously making new ones. I've got a job I love. Everything else totally works out, even the one aspect of life I fucked myself over with. Summer is gonna be fabulous. | | |
| It seems like what is one of the biggest decisions I've ever made has turned out to be a mistake. I could be wrong, it could work out...but then I had to think about why I made this decision in the first place. College is one of those things you should probably think about before jumping in. I never really did...I just kind of picked one. Sure, I had some good reasons: good program for my major, people who thought it would suit me well, fate...but the one reason that sticks out the most is quite possibly the worst reason anyone should ever have for ever doing anything. At the time, there was never anything I was more sure of...and I'm sure at one point that will be the case again, but right now I just feel like I made this huge mistake that no one will let me fix. I know in the end that everything will work out but at the moment, this feels bad. | | |
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